Getting the Thoughts Right

Realized this morning when getting groceries that if all I talk about is food this will get boring fast. I really do make new things, but I’m in a keep it simple mode right now and one grocery run looks pretty much like the other – eggs, spaghetti squash, green beans, hot salsa, whipping cream (they were out of half and half and so was I and I’m not going back to the store today), lettuce, and watermelon.   I still have ground beef from the last run – so no – no lack of protein – just not bought today.

So another question my sister asked me this week – what about all the skin after the weight loss? So far, I periodically have had days/weeks when my skin reminds me of an elephant – all crinkling – like I put on really baggy tights. So far, elephant skin comes and goes in stages. I don’t know if that will continue to happen or not. A friend of mine who also lost a lot of weight considers it a trophy and a reminder of working really hard which makes her feel strong in mind and body. I wonder if my thought process will get there.

The truth is that I look at the picture of me in the overhead squat and I cringe. Bat wings. It’s not skin there, it’s solid or at least it feels that way to me. But that is soooo not important and I know it. I should look at that picture and think about how far I’ve come since starting this journey and feel maybe even a little proud of that journey. But no, I cringe. So working on getting my thoughts right. It’s a process. It’s a process. It’s a process. Two steps forward, one back.

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